MY JOURNEY BACK TO HAPPY
DAY 2 – BUSY
Sometimes, this is how I cope. Purposely flooding my day with things to
do. Back to back meetings. Reports.
Proposals. Task after task. Crisis upon crisis. Hoping that the work continuum would keep my
mind too occupied to think about my heart.
Fearful that any void in my schedule leaves room for thoughts of Daddy
to creep into my day. Counting on the
resulting exhaustion of my brain and body to anesthetize the pain that comes
from remembering.
On a good day, my head hits
the pillow, I'm out like a light, good night, mission accomplished.
But they're not all good days. Too often, despite a punishing
12 to 14-hour work schedule, the tears come out of nowhere, and I'm like, what
the heck! Hey pain, I spent this whoooole day dodging you, I busted my brains
out to keep you away, you're not supposed to be here, no, no, no!!!
Busy is not fail-safe. And
since it is a hit or miss, my goal now is to channel my labor to doing the
things that would make Daddy proud - taking care of Mom and her needs, being a
stern but compassionate boss, looking out for others so that they can have
better lives.
For if busy is not a guarantee
that I will not cry, then at the very least I will make sure that it will make Daddy smile.
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